Hemorrhage

My situation is simple, and Vaknin says there's no such thing as a problem.

The cost of living is a literal phrase. What is more jarring: they charge me for tickets, they charge me for food, they charge me for drinks. And every time they charge me, they literally take money away from me. If I want a new iPhone, they will go as far as charging me money for it, all of it. It is straightforward that this is unsustainable.

As young as I may feel and look, my body's workings start a silent decay, and the money won't go up. Not just would money not appear by itself, it also loses value every day that passes! How worse can it get?

I can eat cactus cuz I don't particularly care. Sure, I'd rather eat yummy stuff on the daily. But I can survive on very dull food. I however like drinking and smoking and the different other social tools.

It is shady how expenses work. I should keep track of my money. But I also shouldn't. I don't see myself saying “Nah, I will pass on that cool thing” just because not passing would mean a –$2 imaginary bank balance. Hence tracking is quite useless. You don't "adapt" to situations, you should instead make the situation adapt to your maladaptive behaviors.

Hemorrhage for I need money to spend, and I need to make it even. What a ludicrous, ludicrous thought: “generate money”. Lies. Truth is this: people like wasting money for themselves; people hate wasting money on other people (unless these are hot women, but that qualifies as "for themselves"). People hate giving their money to other people. People gotta hate whatever problem they have more than they hate the giving money away.

Traction may be a real phenomena. Doing a work three times may be enough to kickstart a routine that works. I believe that I am remarkable at doing certain things. As I was saying, a routine that works can sound good. To become particularly great (easy for me, I believe) at a "someone's problem" kind of problem. Note that comes to mind is to disregard completely B-players—even if they understood that their problem has been effectively solved, their B-status would be useless to the proliferation of my service. To do something that greatly and with meaningful people only would potentially embed me not just in spaces but in income realities that would ultimately fund me enough to not work.

Some thoughts.